so i was thinking...

so i was thinking today, in the bathtub actually....and im very lazy. as you all know, im not playing volleyball for the first time in my 4 years of high school(i think...) anyways...and so i was offered today to play this weekend. i was pretty excited and said, ill think about it. my whole family and my teammates when i made the decison to not play, they were very mad or disappointed and yadda yadda. so...i get this offer because they dont have enough girls and so they asked me. what an honour, right? yeah. so then i was talking with some friends and then i was a little hesitant. hmm, i got thinking and i was dwelling soooooo much on it and then i talked to my mommy and daddy about it and then i decided that i would play....so anyways...after that convo and everything, i went in the bathtub and i was thinking. there were many reasons why i didnt join. (a) because i wanted to do many other things which involve youth and my weekends etc. (b) because it wasnt fun anymore, it was just getting to be a chore and it was no fun. it was WAY too serious. (c) because i wasnt a huge fan of the coached either. they made us work insanely hard. and some of the girls just had insane attitudes as well, so it also made it difficult to have fun. which games are supposed to be....fun. uh huh... so anyways, i was thinking and....i might play spring ball. i dont play vball because i want to impress everybody, i just love hitting that ball with my whole might. its a really good anger releiver. anyways, thats beside the point. and im a very lazy person, so i figured that if the coaches would work me hard, then i would you know, get in shape and accept myself more. hmm....so i think ima gonna talk to the coaches later. and honestly...if im takling alot to the girls and making them laugh--not to sound conceeded--but when they laugh and loosen up a little, we play better. so hopefully ill only lighten the mood and actually have fun;) please pray for me. love love love
betsy